On February14, I started struggling with the idea to blog or not to blog. For me it was a big decision, and others might have thought it was a silly thing to ponder over. Just do a pro/con assessment and make a decision. I ask for prayer, because I felt God wanted me to start doing an electronic journal. I did not want to share my journal with anyone except close friends and family. I asked for prayer from numerous sources. I went the roundabout way telling them why I needed prayer. I told people I felt lead to do a blog, but I was struggling to do it. I went into detail how I didn’t want to share my journal, it’s a big learning curve and numerous other excuses. Bottom line, I was really struggling with being obedient. I did not tell anyone that what I really needed prayer for was obedience, trust and peace.
I Decided, I Would Be Obedient
Even though it meant stepping out of my comfort zone, I decided I would be obedient if God was really leading me to do an electronic journal. I prayed for clarity and direction. After getting the clarity and direction that affirmed, I was being led to do an electronic journal, I started moving forward. After some research and a lot more prayer, I made the purchase and started the hard work as a beginner electronic journal blogger.
I strongly dislike being weak. I think most people also hate being weak and even looking weak. It is funny how one sign of truly being mature in Christ is to not be embarrassed about my own weaknesses and being able to go to God honestly in prayer about my weakness. Being able to go to a non-judgmental and mature Christian for prayer is a big step in maturity too. Stepping out of my comfort zone makes me feal weak. In my weakness of learning how to blog, I am learning to trust Jesus more and invite Him into every aspect of my day too. I am learning (2 Cor 12:10) that in my weaknesses I am strong in Christ. I can see now that by doing my journal in a new way, where I am learning many new things, I am starting to lean on Jesus more instead of my own abilities.
Focus on God
Holy Father, Thank You that my relationship with Jesus is growing stronger, even in my old age. Jesus has me doing something in a new and different way. He is here helping me, equipping me and sending others to help when I am just not able to do something. Jesus is wonderful and He does keep things interesting. I just need to listen and trust Him to lead. Please help me do that. Thank You for Jesus and my many blessings from You. Amen.