One morning, remembering the Scripture from Romans 5 that I had read in the past blessed me unexpectedly during my personal worship time. Romans 5:3-5 (KJV) And not only so, but we glory in tribulations also: knowing that tribulation worketh patience; 4 And patience, experience; and experience, hope: 5 And hope maketh not ashamed; because the love of God is shed abroad in our hearts by the Holy Ghost which is given unto us.
Worship and Surrender
I listened to worship music and needed to lie face down and worship prostrate before God. Sometimes I try to imagine what it will be like to be in the presence of God. This is not my usual way of worshiping God, and I hesitated for ½ a moment. I was in this unusual position praying when I felt like Jesus had touched my feet. I started imagining myself and many other people worshiping God in the same manner in heaven. Don’t we all wonder what it will be like?
The Good Shepherd
Jesus appeared as the Good Shepherd and walked among those laying prostrate before God the Father. Jesus came over and suddenly picked me up. My feet were lifeless as He held me in his arms as if to dance with me. Jesus told me not to worry about my feet and that He would be mine. I put my head on His chest as He danced with me. Suddenly, I was lifeless and as stiff as a board. Jesus lifted me above His head and carried me to a Table of Grace, where he put me in the seat of honor.
Recovery
I was not as lifeless as before, but I could not feed myself. Jesus sat in the seat next to mine and fed me a small cup of applesauce. I wondered if I was in the Hospital and if I had almost died. I started to feel better, and Jesus gave me a cup of sugar-free chocolate pudding to feed myself. I like chocolate pudding and enjoy it. I had eaten the applesauce to stay alive but did not enjoy it. It was nice to have something I could enjoy and to feed myself. I could not leave the Table of Grace because I still could not use my feet.
Speculation Breeds Fear
I wondered if I was in a hospital and if this was how my life would end. I wanted to ask if Jesus was showing me my future. I was too afraid to ask. I told Jesus that the Lord gives, and the Lord takes away. I said to Jesus, “That His will be done.”. I accepted my fate if this was the Will of the Lord for me. However, my feelings were troubled. Jesus had touched my feet, and all of my troubles seemed to have been started by Jesus. What was Jesus teaching me? What was I supposed to learn? I was too afraid to ask and wait on an answer. Then I remembered that Jesus had taught me to pray about everything. My imagination, dreams, ambitions, and emotions because they are meant to be shared with Jesus.
Heavy Emotions
I had given Jesus my hopes and desires. Heavy feelings filled my heart as I remembered what I had hoped for and realized it might never happen. Even though I had surrendered to the Lord, my feelings were too heavy to ignore. I prayed about my disappointment, fear that this was my future, and a feeling that sits within us all as we suffer. I felt unimportant to God until I remembered the Scripture Romans 5:3-5, which tells us to count it as a blessing when we suffer. I knew I was suffering for the Lord for some unknown reason. All of my bad feelings went away when I received the Scripture. I accepted my suffering as a blessing. I started to feel blessed. The Scripture had not healed my feet, but it had healed my emotions and my depressed Spirit. I was learning that the Lord also uses the Scriptures to comfort and heal us.
Pray About Dreams, Ambitions, Emotions, and Scriptures
Lord God Almighty, sanctify me in You and Your righteousness. Please give me the courage to seek You and the truth rather than speculating and living in fear. Help me to look beyond my limitations while here on Earth and receive whatever healing You have for me. According to Your purpose and plan for my life, give me wisdom and understanding. Thank You for helping me accomplish whatever work You have for me while I am on Earth. Lead me in righteousness for Your name’s sake to a successful outcome. Be glorified, Jesus, as You move to answer this prayer and honor our Heavenly Father in me and through all of Your children. Amen.
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