It was April 2011 and I had been doing a Bible Study. Looking at Proverbs 28:11 had led to the discussion of people having secret sin or something they struggled with and would not want to discuss with another human. God helped me see that asking for prayer (with someone I trusted) would help me let go of the issue and give it to Him more fully.
Am I too Self-Focused?
I confessed that I was often too self-focused and did not even want to be bothered by phone calls from certain people. I felt guilty that I was not loving enough to my own family. I also had a big problem forgiving people and especially family members from my childhood. I also found I grew frustrated and then angry when I felt people were not listening to me. As usual I was given the advice to ignore my feelings if necessary and forgive. I was told that God would someday help me forgive with my whole heart if I would just be obedient and try to forgive.
Healing Old Memories
In February 2024, God started to do a deeper work on those secret sins. I was working through the grief of my mother’s death. I found I had a lot of old memories and forgiveness I had to work through. I found that forgiving and letting go of bitterness helped me be happier. None of us are perfect, nor living in a perfect world. However, we can find some joy when we ask God to show us what He has for us. I started healing as I learned to forgive myself and others with Christ’s help.
Focus on God
Lord God Almighty, sanctify the person reading this through Your Love and Your Holy Spirit. Please heal Your people of anything that keeps them from getting the Peace, Love and Joy that You have for them. Help us all pray honestly and truly forgive ourselves and others. Bless them with Your favor today. Be glorified through Your Holy Name Jesus the Christ. Amen.